Friday, May 27, 2005

bloody hell


Having spent the last 10 days trying to feel vaguely alive I went and lit up a cigarette . It's about the first thing I've tasted in all that time . No bloody idea what I've had / have . Daily fever , bleeding nose . Wanted someone to kill me , put me out of my misery . Still got fever at some point every day ( right now ) but the headaches have mostly gone and not as sensitive to light any more . But the cigarette ...... . Not clever . Tomorrow ( it's always tomorrow isn't it ) I stock up on healthy food . For the first time in years I succumbed to going to bed when I was tired and have done for 9 of the last 10 days - what made me think 4 / 5 hours sleep , fast food , cigarettes ( and the rest ) month after month were good for me ?

That's a rhetorical question .



There are still some hardcore bloggers out there ( I'm not one of them ) . I can't find enough hours to do all the things I need / want to . Spending time on the internet loses out right now , much as I enjoy it I can't justify putting it ahead of some other things in my life and I want to try giving this sleep thing a go for a few weeks - see how that makes me feel .

I will however leave any reader who gets this far with a thought I heard someone else say .

Why do people take an instant dislike to the French . answer - it saves time .

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

useful Firefox extensions for MSN Spaces

If you've arrived at this entry via an internet search involving Spaces and Firefox you'll find a series of entries about Firefox and MSN Spaces in a list accessed from the home page of my blog.

####UPDATE - 27 June 2005 - MSN Spaces adds an html editor to the functionality of Spaces that is compatible with Firefox , so no need to use cuneAform now . Spellchecker will still work with the new arrangements so we now have a very convenient way to make new entries with Firefox .####
I've put together a list of extensions Firefox users will find useful , especially when browsing , reading , writing MSN blogs .

just go to the list .


This was written in cuneAform and spell checked with spellchecker ( such a cryptic name ! ) then toggled <> to html , highlighted , cut and pasted into spaces .


Monday, May 09, 2005

tut tut

It's just amazing what you can buy on e-bay .

Does anyone think there might be an element of bitterness here ?

Friday, May 06, 2005

trip

I tried to blog from my work laptop last night . Just felt i had to try as they gave me a 3G card - the theory being anywhere i can get a mobile phone signal i can connect at braodband speed . Of course the technology police sent me a dialogue box that said my attempt to access restricted or unsuitable material had been logged and reported to the IT security dept. . So , at least I know who'll be ringing me on Monday .

I got picked up at the airport by a driver , 7 series Beemer . As usual I felt a little bit embarassed at the effort and expense that's sometimes lavished on me . I always think I'm not worth it but these things have a habit of boosting my opinion of myself and giving me a polite kick up the arse .

My embarassment was short lived , not due to a change of heart or sudden feeling of self-importance but due to the smell of the driver which caught my attention on the short walk outside to the airport car park . The realisation of his not-so-ardent odour was reinforced by the fact there was a brisk breeze . In a split second my thoughts drifted to a 45 minute car journey with Pepe .

I sat in the front , you already know I'd just not feel right sitting in the back . Having felt very tired all day conversation was not big on my list of priorities . The prospect of a tasty dinner in the hotel and a bottle of merlot followed by a sleep of the dead was very appealing . Pleasantries and inane small talk were exchanged , enough to appear not stuck up or condescending and I closed my eyes .

As the journey progressed it became apparent that the car was more of a stranger to the driver than I was . Although an automatic he did what he could to make me think that it wasn't with brakes , accelerator and steering all receiving a thorough testing . The stench enveloping me made me wish he'd give the same level of attention to the air conditioning controls . I couldn't start talking to him again to take my mind off events . I'd be able to taste his smell if I opened my mouth .

About halfway through our trip I decided the only option I had was to hold my breath . With 20 minutes remaining passing out was a distinct possibility but one which would bring it's own reward .

Dinner at the hotel went exactly as expected , the food's always fantastic there .The merlot came in a glass that would swallow half a bottle and not look full . Obviously i had a second . A large party of about 40 / 50 were ushered into the medeival dining room . Some looked to have facial similarities , many different accents were apparent . How did these people know each other , were they many small groups of family members ? On an individual basis they generally looked weird . I don't mean disabled or deformed , just weird . And then of course others in their company looked similarly weird . I concluded they must be accountants .

Thursday, May 05, 2005

shhhh

well , the msn world of blog seems to be evolving doesn't it !

fights , name calling , fall-outs , desertions , absenteeism , competitiveness- just seems more and more like a day at the office .
it's been good to spectate however , especially as I really don't have the time to blog at the moment . It takes me so long to "stab" my message into msn . If i could dictate it and it would appear ......

thanks for the comments regarding the pics of mini-me . she is a beauty and I've definitely been spending more time with her . she's quite amusing in a toddler type way . so refreshing for me to see her trust , enthusiasism , curiosity , confidence - all those things that slowly get beat out of us to some degree or other by the minutii of adult life . just watching her without a care in the world .

on monday when i took her for a walk she started to splash in puddles . I joined in . i decided that next time i go for a walk , even if she's not with me I'm going to splash in the puddles again .

I suggest you give it a try too !